أستغفر الله العظيم أستغفر الله الحليم

socially abject hated and i've had it right wing christians wanna see me in a casket music is my passion friendship really magic but i'll still end up in the dirt like a maggot planet overrun by the necromantic fascists keep a knife for a crisis stashed up in my jacket cuz i am a faggot i will always be a proud faggot slit the throat of a bigot with my hatchet fuck the people who insist upon a ballot the rich have rigged the system make the earth blow its final gasket need to mentally unpack it maybe someone need to send the congressmen a package planetary suicide rapid got these evil thoughts compelling me like a magnet mental state so ragged it'll be you evil fuckers' fault if it happens don't wanna diss my parents while i'm rapping but they really set me up in a highly violent fashion won't admit it, heart of stone like it's granite but i'm still thankful for all the blessings i've been granted so much beauty on this planet grateful that i'm in control of this rhythm like i'm janet fascism, death cult of capital pustulating boil upon this planet, gotta lance it total liberation, know that i advance it the noblest cop still lower to me than a bandit wretched of the earth, gotta plan it only the force of the downtrodden can demand it

lost and abandoned accosted and frantic feeling like any moment i could just vanish i don't know how to express this but i feel headless like i lost my heart and soul long ago trapped in their menace lizards eat my flesh as i'm trapped in a cell so hellish unable to cleanse this every day i dream of my vengeance upon this world with its coercive eugenics i've got friends but it all feels pretend can't comprehend all of the pain in these poetics might burn out in a fire of manic depression like my name was hendrix cuz i have been tested still know the world is splendorous in its essence like incense sticks from an empress but i am defenseless against their polemics eccentric, helpless against the relentless progressing dialectic their offensive everything hectic like the sinking of venice reality suspended my mere existence perceived as transgressive and i'm so lonely, so fucking lonely heart hid away like a corpus hermetic heart hid away like forgotten forensics a desolate expanse like mongolian deserts try to make new connections but what's the point of even making an effort spirit so severed all my psychic wounds just fester broken apart, pieces cloistered, sequestered death is all around, rest in peace rita hester i don't think people even care about the pressure cis society by and large is an abetter like genetically they're our betters if i kill myself you're the culprit transgressor if i kill myself your soul better be repentant

i might be insane got waves of torment always circling inside my mental state drown beneath the surface unable to be saved i gave up the drugs but everything just feels the fucking same and i'm ashamed to still be in that place everything that exists is so beautiful planet earth is so beautiful then why can't i find a foothold to be useful to be stable i'm still grateful but i've been broken since the cradle since the natal my whole life is like a fucked up tragic fable my ex-man used to say i wallowed in depression broke me down just to teach a lesson now i'm so much worse off than when i met him sorry mama, please don't hate me if i don't make it to eighty if i torture myself daily if i'm just a fucking deadbeat if i can't control my demons if i can't control my feelings things i'm feeling will have me end up swinging from the ceiling sorry keith, i can't release it can't find relief from all my lesions find relief from my energy seeping can't wake up from this nightmare that i'm dreaming

no more like youth of today say defend my girls with my words burning like an AK i can't take another suicide another stolen sister that our world has brutalized know the fools aren't confused with their clueless side deliberate bigotry to bring a cruel demise ghoulish tide modern Yazids rule of greed aligned feed on our community’s pain like the Greek god of time how benign the system we live in devours our most precious children cuz we’ve defined them as out of line with enshrined taxonomies prescribed as writ from the divine what's left for a trans person truly work a bullshit job get harassed by the public every day so cruelly like it's your duty or else rot on welfare selling feet pics and booty Lord remove me from this hell i exist in and help all my friends eke out their existence protect us all from their weapons and their prisons peace is the way but i’ll eviscerate a bigot i’ve shed too many tears my hearts been torn apart too many times for my peers Lord I fear for my life every time I go outside and to waste away slowly might be worse than cyanide empty eyes glaze over self-medication spend every cent you got to numb the pain of what you’re facing that’s what we’re faced with that’s what it’s like to be erased in debasement when your cries fall on deaf ears when no one gives a shit even if they hold a trans person dear it’s all passivity craving some civility, stability that desire’s killing me well-meaning liberals always hocking docility stocking the military police facility make our way of life and our resistance villainy always shift right despite supposed leftist victory fund their campaigns on empty promises incremental tolerance keeping us as hostages as long as the right people keep their noble prominence the democratic party gives a damn about the consequence this world is a graveyard filled with walking corpses who think they have a safeguard think they’re an exception think that this world order’s something to invest in never question what’s the ethics of concession to dig a big hole in the sand to put your head in ignore the regret and repress the objection when another sister gets lost in abjection I just came back fresh from the psych ward blessed by the Most High, sulk less and fight more but i carry the pain of the world on my shoulders and the pain continues to unfurl as i get older pain just smolders continues to burn though the fire gets colder I might fall myself into sleep for eternity I don’t want to die but the trauma’s always hurting me I might have died already if not for the certainty that i’d been granted out of joint with this world of adversity a toxic abyss of absurdity where any love you get always seems cursory smothered in hegemonic prognostication of my untimely suffocation in a basement world that i’m encased in wants to see me dead my spirit strangulation they cannot snuff out all the light i was made in your bigotry now i say no more your rejection now i say no more your hegemony now i say no more no more to your worldwide social war your cherished ideals i say no more your consumerist philosophy no more your culture of violence no more no more to your worldwide social war

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد

انت نور الله فجراً جئت بعد العسر يسراً ربنا أعلاك قدرا يا إمام الانبياء انت فى الوجدان حياً انت للعينين ضيـا انت عند الحوض ريـاً انت هادى وصافيـاً يا حبيبى يا محمد يا نبى سلام عليك يا رسول سلام عليك يا حبيب سلام عليك صلاوت الله عليك يا نبى سلام عليك يا رسول سلام عليك يا حبيب سلام عليك صلاوت الله عليك يرتوى بالحب قلبى حب خير رسلٍ ربى من به أبصرت دربى يا شفيعى يا رسول الله أيها المختار فينا زادنا الحبُ حنينا جئتنا بالخير دينا ياختام المرسلين يا حبيبى يا محمد يا نبى سلام عليك يا رسول سلام عليك ياحبيب سلام عليك صلاوت الله عليك